Theres so much I could write about the tail end of this year that I wouldn’t even know where to begin…
- The guys I’ve hooked up with
- The stupid shit I or other people have said and how it made me laugh
- The nights out and the chaos that ensued
- The nights in chilling with everyone
- The friends I’ve met this year and the people I miss
- The hours spent at Cas, shredding and my new board <3 and the general banter that comes with the territory…
- The academics and how just as I think it’s all coming together, it all falls apart…
- The whole group dynamics of our floor and how I still feel like the outsider
- The whole thing about being separate from my coursemates.
- The fights and bitterness between my parents and I and how it’s still ongoing.
- The way I barely see my mates from home anymore even tho none of us have left this city.
- The dabbling with drugs and slight hedonism… I’d find it so hard to explain and describe those hours.
- How I’m single and I HATE IT right now. I used to be comfortable enough with myself and with entertaining myself that I didn’t need to be in a relationship. Now its that I am so comfortable with all of it that I’d like to share time with someone and learn to be comfortable with someone else.
- What my dreams are and how the odds are stacking up against me.
Don’t get me wrong - I’m bizarrely content with life but that could just be a cassic case of “ignorance is bliss”…
